if anybody is still here

well here we are again. its always such a pleasure, ha.. ha.. ha.. ha... anyone get that reference?, no OK didn't really expect anyone to its a pretty common phrase. well i didn't get to it for a while. and i would like to apologize for that.i don't know how i,m going to go about this from now on but it'll probably get updated at least occasionally. i just want to let everyone know i appreciate anyone who is willing to stomach any part of this mess. i ummm i'm still kinda depressed i,m passing everything except math ((which is a horrible disastrous failure since i cant seem to get up in the morning)). oh and i still cant use proper punctuation. sometimes it can be hard to put feelings into words i am sure many of you have felt the pain of this ((by many i mean the bulk of the small amount of people that may read this)). i think this really helped me and after i quite i was in a really bad state for a while. i don't even know how long its been. i guess i'm just trying to use this to cope. i don't know maybe this is selfish but i hope in some form or another i eventually become well known. i want to live forever but since that's probably not a likelihood i want to live for a extended length of time through what i do in my life :) and i think that may just be good enough. but really even though that may be true i'm kinda depressed torn up inside angry and mentally unstable k byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.