monster hunter Armour skills

in monster hunter i finally got  high rank brachydios armor which is my favorite basically just because it has challenger +2 already on it that and the fact that it also has adrenaline +1 really helps complete the skill set along with the always welcome bombardier for extra boom and extra good times and with all pieces at second upgrade i have a defense of 351 and at third upgrade which i just got 371

personally i got the gems to upgrade adrenaline to level two this way i get a big honking attack boost two. on another note ill post them as there effects. i also have a charm that gives me gathering +1 so that will be listed as well

Adrenaline +1: +40 Defense when Health is below 40%.

Adrenaline +2: +45 Defense and +30% raw damage when Health is below 40%.

Challenger +2: Attack is increased +25 Attack and Affinity +20% when a monster is enraged. ((affinity has to do with crit chance the higher the affinity the better the crit chance))

Bombardier: All Bombs' damage x1.3, as well as granting 100% bomb-combination success rate. Explosive element attack x1.2 (increases to 1.25 with Felyne Gunpowder cooking effect activated).

Gathering +1: Increases chances to get more items from gathering points.

and i have all of these except Adrenaline +1 as i have adrenaline +2.

so ya mad offensive boosts yo XD lol and you get more boom for your buck ((he he horrible joke)) literally.  


anyway i think that's enough for one day i hope you liked this feel free to share an opinion. i would like to apologize again for bad grammar not updating very much lately and bad puns. i wish you a good day and a good life so for now buh-bye 

a email to my mother

i sent this email to my mom today

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Subject: do you care enough to read through it?

do you want to know why i hate you so much

years years of suffering you know when i was a child how i was so very afraid of death the trauma from that never left

you never show me affection or hug me or try to calm me down when im upset or angry you avoid me your afraid and it hurts me when you threaten punishment instead of trying to calm me down or  comfort me or anything 

after years of my mom ordering me around never seeming to truly care is it any wonder why i resent you so much want an example how many YEARS has it been since you've hugged me

you buy me things feed me and give me cloths i have a place to sleep but you never thought that maybe there was something missing well guess what all those years all that affection that i was never given feeling unwanted and un-cared for my own mother afraid of me like i am a monster it took its tole and now  my self esteem my confidence my determination they all took a hit all demolished. worse then that they where never built up 

i am a damaged person and i will never be who i could have been and im not usually proud of who i am. i am screwed up and i know it and you need to realize why 

((this is not part of the email i wanted to fix something she actually dose hug me at bedtime but it dose not seem to mean anything it just feels like part of the schedule))

sorry for not posting for a while i got really depressed and felt shitty i wish you awesome chiz and goodbye

my mom sold all my old ps2 and gamecube games on a lighter less mentally shattering note i made some pixel art

these games meant something to me she says she will bye them all back eventually but it will take a while and she got rid of my ps2. let me name the most expensive Pokemon XD gale of darkness 60$ sonic adventure two battle  60$ and smash bros melee 70$. they where my childhood, and when she was cleaning up she thought we didn't have a way to play them so she thought it would be "ok" TO GIVE THEM TO VALUE VILLAGE A PLACE THAT DOSE NOT EVEN KNOW THERE VALUE. you know what we could have played them and she screwed up but now i'm going to have those games but not MY GAMES.  

anyway i don't want to talk very much about that cause then i will lose it now for the pixel art. apparently they are not considered image or video files for whatever reason so i cant upload them. anyway its a sword and a better sword .so yah i'm gonna go stew in my agony now so i wish everyone a great day and life i apologize for the grammar and for now bye

i need ideas PLEASE LEAVE YOUR IDEAS FOR A TOPIC IN THE COMMENTS

i have nothing to say i need things to say but my life i completely uneventful i need inspirations someone PLEASE give me a idea anything i am so out of ideas. if you do ill i dono give you a shout out or something or talk to you if you'd like or if you like just leave the idea i just need an idea.

please comment your idea if you have one because i am all out a you wish you a awesome life and day and for now goodbye.

unfortunately its a little to late because mid night just passed but im just really tired and wanted to say that i really do appreciate if anyone reading this.

brilliant fool my sad little tale

i feel as though i am a brilliant fool. i feel stupid i feel smart i don't know what to believe anymore people have told me i sound very smart or mature but i have not done anything much so far. i feel as though i have done nothing all my life i hardly go out i have little friends and my experiences are very limited. i feel as though my hole life i have to this point i have learned little of true value and i feel as though this wasted time will haunt me for all of my existence. i feel as though i wasted sixteen years that feel like an eternity yet no time at all. i have been told i am smart i have been told i have potential but it dos not matter because i am completely clueless. i seek someone to help to light the way teach me show me new experiences i seek friends i seek some to love. yet i have still done nothing i waste my life on a chair and play on a screen i know nothing in reality only fading theory's. i feel as though i have wasted my life even though its only a small part of my life i feel like its all and i am doomed now because of times past. i regret it so much yet while i still have time i continue to play my life away games lose meaning and the amusement fades. i have wasted this time i know not of life if you talk to me on the street you may see i don't know how to talk to you i feel as though i have wasted my life on a screen. i don't know why but i started rhyming at some point.............. whatever. anyway basically if you want a explanation strait up here's it. at school i have been told i'm smart many times even though my grades are bad honestly mostly because of homework  and its mostly staff that say that but i never think its sincere. my hole life i didn't really do much mostly just stayed home. when i was young i was a sad kid.  and by this point you probably know about how i am now. never went out never talked to people i have some problems and i always felt like less when i was younger. i think people try to cheer me up like they compliment me they did more more when i was younger but i am not sure if there sincere and it really screwed with my head after a while i suppose if they weren't being sincere than i didn't want the compliment it hurt. i don't receive a hole lot of affection unless you count compliments that i don't know if there sincere but umm i mean more like hugs and stuff.  i am so slow to do so many things that take brain power i don't know so many practical things i should i can hardly focus i don't have much will to do anything and i just don't get some get things . now i don't want to go out in public. i am scared that ill embarrass myself say something stupid have a emotional out burst not be able to keep it in lose something or have trouble getting home. i need experiences to fix it but i don't want to go out i am scared i know i shouldn't be but i am. i can talk sometimes as if i am much older have much more experience than i do i suppose i do pick up on things but yet in a way i still know next to nothing.

i am sorry i am starting to slack on these goodbye things but umm goodbye.

what day is it today?

its valentines day its more or less just a regular day for except ya know candy i don't have a lover or anything so it dose not really mean diddly squat to me. it dose however make me feel a little extra lonely. so meh it kinda stinks but what ever i mean its nice if you have someone. so if you do have someone i think you should enjoy it or if your not into that kinda thing just relax for another normal day. it don't really matter to me and i don't really care just live your life the way you dictate you where gonna anyway. bye for now.

its really late and i cant think strait so today will be a very short post basically thanks to you all cause i am not at a little over 150 page views which i'm very happy about bye for now.

another rage post with some physiological junk

i really hate my mom sometimes i honestly swear to much and i feel bad about it but she drives me absolutely insane with her constant nagging she dose not get that sometimes its better to shut the fuck up for a second so i don't get more angry. she never comforts me she only nags me its like her sole purpose in life is to annoy and nag me. i mean seriously she dose these stupid little making voices sometimes when some of my favorite anime characters are saying something emotional and important or crying. miss it so i have to look back and try again an there always ((mom and bro)) yapping and interrupting me with nagging and stuff. and they both drive me bat shit crazy my bro is cruel kinda mean and only thinks of himself meanwhile he try,s to hug me for no reason and its like no your not there for me why in hell should i let you hug me. meanwhile i'm just a hormonal teenager just trying to find love and affection and just someone to hold me and say i am here its going to be OK in the form of a girlfriend because i never get affection from my family. and the thing is i long for that so very badly and it drives me bonkers i'm always stressed out and some times i just loose it. so much pressure so many things and my family dose not realize how much i am hurting on the inside or how sincerely angry or frustrated i am. and my mom she never learns what to do she never gets it she dose not get that "just playing around" copieing my favorite anime characters at the most heartfelt times REALLY pisses me off. and its not just that don't get me wrong she screws up like that not learning how to react in so many other ways that one just really pisses me off and hay it was already there.


im sorry guys this just turned into just another i am angry and i hate my family ((family issues)) rant. i am really sorry about this guys but everyone needs to get out there anger some how. i really hope this dose not become a normal thing with me. back on topic anyway i thank you for reading this and apologize for dah grammars. i hope you enjoyed this feel free to share your opinions in the comments. so to end this off i'm going to wish you a great day and life as well as bidding you farewell. ((ps there's one non rage thing about me i just blurted out i think is going on with me physiologically))

instinct part of who i am

one thing that's important about me and that's important to me is i'm a very instinctual person its a important part of who i am and its part of the reason i am who i am. i listen to my instincts and there good to me as for as i'm concerned. i think its important to listen to those feelings ((instincts)) and learn to understand them. in this way i think we can get back so much that for most people has been lost to time and undermined skills that we still have if where willing to except them. in my opinion if you understand your instincts you not only understand yourself better but it can help to understand others better to. anyway instincts play a large part in who i am how i act and what decisions i make.

i think its important that people understand that however you look at it instincts are still a valuable resource to be tapped into and should not just be dismissed as a primal urge.in all honesty my memory sucks i don't really remember things in detail i am left with a  feeling a thought a memory floating about to be retrieved when it is needed. it may sound weird but it dose not feel all that conscious like i don't remember the thought itself but rather what it means and what it means to me. now often times its not really an active memory like its not something that's just oh ya i remember this its not like i can just remember something and its there whenever. its just floating up there but when i do need it like on a test for example i can often remember it when i need to i have the information. although i do remember concepts ideas and functions quite well things like names and dates i have a hard time remembering. so for me its there when i need it and i think that's what really counts.

anyway guys i hope you liked this post. i apologize for the bad grammar. if you have any opinions to share questions or anything of the like feel free to comment. i again would like to say i appreciate it if you've read this far and basically any of this blog for that matter. again i wish you a great day and life. goodbye for now.

when i look back at my life, the meaning of nothing ((warning kinda heavy))

when i look back on my life........ i dont feel pride no joy is found no sense of accomplishment. when i look back on my life all i have to greet me is sorrow pain regret guilt and the feeling of wasted time. i haven't done a lot with my life no great events have changed who i am. there is not much im proud of and there is much i regret. i feel as though i have learned little and know less still. i dont know if im a good person i think i have a kind heart but i dont know.i have yet to determine who i am and will be who i will become later is still a mystery to me. i have no special elegences no causes to crusade. i have nothing no strong belief that keeps me going only friends. friends i value greatly sometimes i feel i am doomed to failure and have no place in greatness and that my only salvation is to help others. i feel as though the after life could exist but what i fear most is ceasing to exist. i dont know what to believe truth is i never have. i dont know whats in store for me on the road ahead i just hope it gets better and i find direction so that im not lost stumbling through the darkness for my entire life.



anyway i hope you liked that im just gonna say that i wish you a great day and life and goodbye for now.

monster hunter awesomeness

ok i was wrong about the it not being public thing turns out my bro is just a weirdo i really lately don't know what to type at all nothing much has happened. i played battle block theater with my friend to get a monkey head which unfortunately only he ended up getting grumble grumble. i watched some one piece and learned about a new mechanic in mh4u where you can hunt monsters and get variants of normal armor and weapons so that was awesome.  i want op variants now but apparently these quests well first of all there is something with determined monsters that are different every time sometimes its unstable which basically means up to five monsters can show up and you probably don't know what most of them are. you can get the special equipment by mining in that location the more and stronger things you hunt the bigger the payout including better weapons and armor. depending on the monsters you hunt the weapon will be different with a bit of random thrown in there. depending o the monsters you fight you can also get quests to hunt those monsters there however these quests increase in difficulty every time you complete one also making the pay out bigger. the place changes every time two and so dose where different items are found so its different every time. blah blah blah blah cant think of anything else i am done for now.

i hope you enjoyed my babbling about a game chances are you've never even heard about. anyway feel free to leave some feed back or share an opinion. again i apologize for the grammar. i wish you a great day and a prosperous life. for now goodbye and goodnight.

home again

im back home again my friend wants me to play battle block theater and i hate my mom as much as ever. i don't want to set it to open to public now because i have to do a bunch of things first. anyway this is gonna be another short post cause i have to get to bed soon. i hope this gets more activity after i make it open to all sorts of peeps. anyway i feel really stupid about that. i was playing a bit of goat sim earlier and it was fun. i went to my grandmas i had a burger and fries and later cupcakes with whipping cream and raspberry's. i checked out some of my uncles new programming shiz.

idk what else to say so bye.

morehtephine

can not think brain will not think title is morehtephine cause i felt like it ok i told you my brain refuses to co-operate. anyway i m back to righting this and brain is less un-co-operative. anyway i have had allot of tea lately most of it with at least one and a half overflowing teaspoons of sugar.
i think i like cats just putting that out there because i don't know what else to say i guess. oh also on another note i am pretty sure this hole time this blogs been private or something so there's that. i am feeling really stupid about that but ill change it in the mourning. i am gonna go have some tea then get back to this. so now i am thinking putting three overflowing spoon fulls of sugar is one cup of tea is a horrible idea.anyway im goin home.

that's it for now i am going to end it quick this time and just say byeeeeeee.

this is basically really just babling

i am still in kelowna and i still don't know how much ill be able to update this my family still dos not know about the blog shhhhhhh. anyway i moved some more wood today i have another bit to do tomorrow and then i get moneys. today has been pretty good some work and allot of dog and cat petting. so far things have been pretty good. i still miss my video games talking to the friend i know in real life and the battle yacht i didn't get a chance to finish that. i was hoping to actually make some good stuff in gmod for once but meh you gain some you loose some. i always like to through a little of my opinions or some philosophical weirdness in there and i think its important that you have something to think about. me my dad and my bro where gonna play a special game of dnd 3.5 they plotted for me to play but my dad wont make his character sheet. and yes i am not just various degrees of normal nerd i am a table top role playing nerd two and yes not just dnd. to be honest i am quite amused at the thought of someone not knowing what im talking about with "dnd" and "table top role playing games". my recommendation if you don't know what either of those things are is just to search it up on the internet.

i honestly cant think of what else to say so i am gonna say i hope you liked it. if you have an opinion to share or anything of that nature feel free to comment. again i apologize for the bad grammar. i want to say i am very great full if you read this far or read any other of my posts. i wish you a great day and life, so with that goodbye for now.

kelowna

im up in kelowna. so far its been pretty good i am hauling some wood around my grandparents big yard for moneys so that's nice. my dad is here he isn't necessarily the best in my opinion personality wise but i respect him and admire him in some ways he is my dad after all. i haven't really done much so far other that sit around and pet the 3 dogs and one cat which i love doing. i only just got my bro to let me on his computer today and only by answering three different riddles with increasing difficulty he can be really irritating. i apologize for missing yesterday i tried but my bro is a pain. there's snow up here not a ton but quite a bit. they have gelatin powder so that's tasty i have a candy sitting beside me now and there was ice cream and strudel for desert yesterday. i don't know what else to say about that. humans do have allot of annoying psychological things for one my home area and specifically my school are places that for me make me kinda anxious and feel awkward. when i am here i don't feel as awkward anxious i feel more confident if only i knew how to work through the kinds of feelings my home area triggers.

anyway i think this is enough for now so i hope you enjoyed this and i am grateful if you read it this far or read any other posts. if you have any opinions or suggestions for a subject feel free to comment constructive criticism is encouraged but hate is not. again i apologize for the bad grammar. i wish you a great day and a great life that's about it so goodbye for now.

very very sleepy

this will probably be my last post for a while i try to update daily so i thought i should before i left.
i will finally see my dad i guess and my grandparents that live there i have other relatives up there two. kelowna if you didn't know oh ya i also don't know hot to spell it. i am really tired right now i am having trouble thinking what to say. i am very tired............  brain*tap tap tap*........ brain wake up.i try thinking and all that comes out is tired. sorry i cant think imma end it here.

i hope you liked it yada yada i wish you a great life and day and for now byeeeeee.

i sincerely don't know what to call this

so last night i slept with my old favorite stuffed animal it may sound childish or stupid but it helped me sleep more soundly. i just wish i had someone it would be nice. anyway now that where done talking about my non existent love life and my stuffed animals wow this is off to a good start.
anyway my a hole of a mom decides she is going to send me up to kellowna with my relatives for the time i have out of school which is complete bullshit because she only told me like two days in advance. that and she says she "needs a break" but i need a effing brake two. i feel like she thinks she needs a break  more than me and i feel like for hers she is taking away mine. i am pissed because i need time to relax sometimes and i hate being sent away all the time. i relax by going on the computer and talking to people people that i like that support me because i need emotional support sometimes. i am really grateful to these people because they really help me and they don't really want that much in return. i don't know i may be doing better now but i still feel like i am not good enough like i am not good at anything i feel so frustrated mad and sad. my family may not know that but right now i just feel venerable like even though i feel better than i have before most of the time now. this better state of mind i have tried to make i feel like its frail and beyond it is despair and if its broken now ill fall hard i need them. but recently while i was writing this my mom basically said i could stay home but she wouldn't be around much to help with anything much. i would stay but i haven't seen my dad in so long i miss him and would feel bad if they came all this way and then i didn't go. and on a related note i probably wont be updating my blog for a little less than a week i will try but i don't know if i will be able to update it up there.


anyway i think i am going to cut myself off at this point. i hope you enjoyed this i apologize for the grammar and feel free to share your thoughts. as always i wish you a happy day and life and say goodbye for now sooooooo gbye
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self betterment i think thatll probably be apropriate...................

so i have thought about this for a while i keep wanting to look things up on the internet to try to helps me better myself i guess like helping me focus and such. lately i have also been online quite a bit and there have been people there for me that i really appreciate, i am not the happiest person but some people i know have really helped and it means allot to me. i feel like i waste allot of time on video games and don't spend nearly enough time on learning and working to make myself better. don't get me wrong i love video games and i don't really think they are a waste of time. but sometimes i wish i has made a few more friends got out more often or learned more things i may need important things i have neglected maybe even had a girlfriend. for me regret nags me allot it feels bad and i cant get over it. but ill never know if i would've had any of these things if i had acted differently. so i have decided i will try to better myself get out more often and find things on the internet to help me understand the world around me and myself better so that i can be a better person. ok maybe that's overstating it a little considering i have had that affinity before and i just slumped back on the couch XD. but ill try to use the internet to better myself that can be counted on.

anyway again i apologize for the bad grammar and i hope you guys enjoyed this. feel free to share your opinions in the comments. i wish you a great day and a great life but for now byeeeeeeee.